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[Jul. 14th, 2005|09:43 am]
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When the world crashes down
All has fallen apart
Trust is left on the floor
There you are
When dreams are torn away
And promises are lost
Suffering stands strong
There you are


When I look into your eyes I see complete confusion, yesterday pink was your favorite last week blue and now orange. How do I seriously begin to see myself with you if you cannot even recognize your own feelings. I told you this last year--- and I didnt realize how wise I was-- but you arent ready--- you thought you were-- but see if things would have happened you dont know how to control your own heart-- I know you have potential maybe thats what I see more than anything else. I was right when I thought you would change-- maybe not change your relationship with God but change in who you are being while you are deciding what to become. Dont tell me not to wait for you. I dont want to hear how you only want to be friends. I know all of that. I am not questioning it. I am just going through a lame time--- but I am comforted knowing that for every lame time and lame relationship I am rewarded something twice as good because I am patient and faithful and I will not stop following God and trying to live the life He has planned for me--- You will come to so many realizations in the next year--- I am here-- I will be here--- as I always am--- I can only tell you that -- I cannot tell you how my heart will think of you in a few days weeks months or even years-- You know me-- you know my heart -- you know how deeply I feel for you--- I know we will share some amazing times together--- but last night cannot happen again-- I am not letting it happen again-- if that means we dont talk about feelings-- we dont talk about dating other people-- I dont know--- but it wasnt fair to do to myself-- I should have just left it at my initial reaction because I think I just need to suck it up and deal with it on my own-- I have a lot of other friends that hold me close and will help me and be there for me right now. I know we can have fun on saturday -- so lets do that =)
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